6.00am was the first wake up call first started by our dear Vice-Captain, Farhana.
thankfully she called becoz for some reason, i didnt hear my alarm ring or issit just tt i off-ed the alarm when it rang and went bak to sleep, forgetting wad i did the nxt moment i woke up ? -.-
anywaysss, left for Canberra Sec and reached there at abt 6.45am.
shortly after tt Rong Hua came, then ShiQi, and then some uncle followed by another uncle hu drove in wif his white car and opened the sch gate.
we had 2 more practices b4 we set off for HTA.

reached HTA at abt 8.50am.
everyone was pretty nervous BUT determined to do their best.
registered ourselves, went to the holding area, prayed, got briefed, clarified our doubts and off we went to the place where we wld pitch up everything tt we had worked hard for.

1st short horn blast was blown.
All Captains went into the pitching boundary and checked for any fault in the logistics.
and then, it was time.
everyone got rdy as they prepared their watches and got themselves mentally prepared.
"BEEP..!" (or wadeva sound it makes -.-) went the horn!
this was the time.
everything tt we had sacrificed, all the sweat, pain and blood tt we shed, came down to this very moment.
it was our last shot.

everyone rushed in and started doing wad they were supposed to do.
"Canberra On bo?!" i shouted.
no response. everyone was too concentrated in setting up the things.
then again,"Canberra on bo?!!!!" finally a response came, "On ahh!!"
"on bo?!" "on ah!!!"
we started pegging and tying wif all our might.
5 mins past and the bashaar and gadget were alreadi halfway done.
"giv everything till u have nth...", shouted ShiQi "LEFT!"screamed the girls."giv everything till u have nth?!" "LEFT!!"
finally flagstaff was up but there was a little problem though.
the flag was not able to be raised up due to unforseen circumstances. lols.
but Frances, our heroine of the day, managed to get the flag up. weee~
everything was goin well.
10 mins and everything was up.
did our usual housekeeping and the long horn blast was blown.
everyone left the pitch immediately and fall-ed in.
other schs were standing emotionlessly, while we Canberrans were screaming for joy.
we noe we had done our best and this was the best tt we gave.
judgement soon arrived.

our SPOKESMAN/LADY: Farhana and LiHong
we sat under the scorching hot sun as the judges judged everything tt we did.
all of us held hands, and hoped tt nth wld go wrong.
judging was done, out of the pitching area, gave our dear Hanisah a big BIG grp hug and out of HTA via bus.
we left the place, grinning frm ear to ear.(especially Hanisah)
many laughters of joy and squeaks of delight were heard.
we were all... satisfied. :D

mr latiff was waiting for us at the foyer as we alighted the bus.
he was also smiling non-stop. man onli God noes how long had he been smiling ever since he heard the news.
we talked abt our experience and had a little laughter here and there b4 we left for home.

however, these joyful moments had its limitations.
ltr in the afternoon, the results were announced.
we didnt...get the position we all hoped for.
when i first heard the news, my heart literally sank. >.>
but well, at least we left HTA wif no regrets.
tt was our main aim ya?
and we had alreadi achieved tt (:

my prayer had been answered hahas.
i did not deserve anything in the first place.
to have achievements after this whole experience,to actually gain something, is already a great blessing frm God.

To all those involved in UCC:
I noe the news is hard to take in. even i was bz emo-ing in my room and staring at the sky lmao. Do not be disheartened ya? its not abt the position tt we shld be caring abt. we gave it our all , and tts wad realli matters.
Love u guys for all the effort tt everyone of u gave, for all the passion every single one of u had.
These memories and deeds will nv be forgotten (:























Go Canberra! ;D

Ive had my own share of heartaches.
But sometimes understanding that nth is perfect in this world, brings a little comfort to my inner soul.
At least I will get the idea tt they r putting in the every effort.
Striving, yet being cautious at the same time.
No one in this world can ever fulfill ur every nid.
There r more than 6 billion ppl in this world.
6 billion ppl with 6 billion different personalities.
If u can find just ONE, man I salute u.
Other than tt, gd luk to u finding the PERFECT boy/girl lols.
But im sure tt there will be tt very special someone hu wld be perfect in UR eyes.
Its nv ez to accept ppl the way they are.
But like everyone says, ‘THE POWER OF LOVE IS GREATER THAN ANYTHING ELSE’ LOLs. XD.

Love is just a word. We put meaning to it. (Courtesy of Abdullah :x)

Love fills ur empty heart, ur empty soul.
It is becoz of Love, there is meaning to life.
The love for the ppl u care for, sweet indulgences like chocolates and even sports like Frisbee.

To those hu aren’t really their jovial selves, learn to accept the imperfection of everything.
Get back up and keep on pushing urself to achieve more than wad ure capable of achieving.

if you want something, put your hearts and souls into it.You must focus and want to achieve something. Stop sitting around and wait to be called, wait to be invited, wait to be led.(courtesy of Sebastian FOO)

And, for a few ppl, they may be causing u to feel uncertain of some things and even caused u to feel the pain wif just minor actions but kip in mind tt u may be doin the same to them.
Well it is becoz of this, insecurity and fear comes about.
Get rid of tt barrier and clear things out.
Yes u may nv clear everything but hey, getting rid of a few of those doubts is better than clearing none at all.
Put in the effort in getting wad u want. Iron out all the probs ure facing.

Obliviously, when things get too intense and demands our attention, it is then that we realise the sticky situation we are in. It is easier to just run away. But apparently, philosophers and believers had always stayed be the belief that running away never solves the problem. It will only add on to it. But temptations will always be there to do the inmorale/wrong/'looked down' on acts because they are always so much simpler.(Courtesy of Hanisah)

Do not assume.
And especially for the guys hu r supposed to be more MANLY, get the ball rolling.
And girls, be more gentle and take the initiative when needed. Do not always leave it to the poor guys wif many great responsibilities upon their shoulders. Lol.
It doesn’t matter if there isnt anything in common, whether fat or thin, smart or folly, beautiful or hideous.
Tts the beauty of Love. Its unconditional.
Wadever it is, just enjoy urself wif huever ure wif . frens , family maybe even TT girl/boy.Go ahead and play frisbee, hang out wif ur frens, party ur hearts out. lols.
Manage everything despite the quantity.

Man, hu am i? a psychiatrist? =.=
mmm.. Nah. Im a person hu CARES.

You Are Sunrise

You enjoy living a slow, fulfilling life. You enjoy living every moment, no matter how ordinary. You are a person of reflection and meditation. You start and end every day by looking inward. Caring and giving, you enjoy making people happy. You're often cooking for friends or buying them gifts. All in all, you know how to love life for what it is - not for how it should be.

Marriage. What some invariably fear but what others excitedly look forward to.
Once married, a couple embarks on a new life that for some is a lifetime of a bliss but for others it is a period of troubles and unhappiness.
Divorce has now become a controversial issue among many married couples.

Due to the sacred institution of marriage, divorce should not be an option even if the marriage is on the rocks.
There is no turning back once a couple marries and this is evident from the vows that the couple makes on the day of marriage.
The well-known phrase 'till death do us part' is an obvious indication of what society has viewed marriage as.
The couple should stay married until the day they die as that is what they solemnly promised each other on the day they agreed to spend their lives together.
Moreover, the fact that witnesses are needed when the couple is taking the vows further affirms the significance of the vows.
These vows therefore should not be broken under any circumstances.

Divorce is a sword that pierces through the stability of a family in particular and society in general.
When a couple gets a divorce, their decisions affect their closed ones like their children and their siblings.
Children no longer have the close-knit and supportive family that they need in their growing years.
The snowball effect on the children is drastic, disastrous, eternal and immediate.

Furthermore, marriage should never land in a divorce becoz no marriage is perfect and the couple constantly has to work out problems between themselves.
Divorce is merely an easy way out for couples who do not take the effort to iron out their problems.

However, many couples state that irreconcilable differences have resulted in divorce.
For some couples, an extramarital affair by one party cannot be tolerated and the couple will seek a divorce. For others, an abusive parent or spouse cannot possibly continue living in the same house as the rest of the family.
In such instances, perhaps the children are better off wif either parent than in a trouble-filled complete family.
Additionally, a loveless marriage is another reason for divorce. For many people, marriage is synonymous to undying and eternal love and once this does not exist, there is ample reason to end the marriage.
In every relationship there will always be ups and downs in terms of feelings.
Going in seperate ways just because the feeling isnt there, is not a good reason for seperation at all.

In conclusion, a marriage is an institution that should not end up in a divorce.
Couples should try to work things out between themselves if not for their children, also for what it represents.
Marriage is one of the building blocks of society and if it breaks down, the fragile structure that society is made up will be destroyed.

wadeva happened this week, made me realized tt i have failed as a daughter, a sister and a fren.
dun u noe how guilty i feel right now?
how big the wound has become?
why cant u see how much she loves u?

Basically, i have been rotting at home today.
UCC competition has been postponed due to the bad weather.
i heard tt once they postponed it, it suddenly stopped raining. lmao
well there r a few advantages for postponing the competition.
1. Abdullah can come and support now tt the science thingy wld be over i guess? xD
2. More Time
3. The Girls wld be more..physically rdy by then :x

this morning when i woke up i had a slight fever -.-..
maybe it is becoz of the FRIED chicken tt i ate and the COLD DRINKS tt i drank.
or... maybe its becoz i slept late ytd.
had headache the whole day. blah blah blah
ok fine, it was my mistake for consuming those stuff >.>
resisting temptation isnt an ez task =/

anyways,
i haven really been myself nowadays.
is it becoz im too stressed, or issit becoz im taking things for granted.
ok i tink its the second one.
last week, everything was goin so well tt i cldnt ask for more.
but soon everything starts goin wrong.
all becoz of one person. Me.
Parents hu demands love, hu treats me like a messenger or some information producer.
y cant they do it themselves? =/
i mean, yea it is the right thing to help them but..things like these just arent the things tt im supposed to help in.
i hate it when i start flaring up, i hate it when i start being complacent, and most of all i hate it when i become self-centered.
its like there is this on-off switch in me.
at times it wld be on and at times it wld be off.
cant i just jam the switch at 'ON' so tt i wun have to off again? >.>

i have been saying things tt hurts ppl alot.
i didnt even tink b4 i say anything.
those actions tt i did, those things tt i said.
There was minimum self-control.

Mind over body they say.
but in this case its the mind over the heart.

If the heart was pure, none of those thoughts would have come across the mind.
and if none of those thoughts came abt, none of those actions would have been made.
im trying hard, to change hu i was b4.
self-centered, ill-disciplined, weak-hearted.
yea tt was me a long time ago.
but even so, up till today, those characters come bak every now and then.
Even if God is here, i will not change if i am not willing to.
He gave me the strength to overcome the problems i faced, He was there to guide me.
He did so much for me, so much that even if i gave my life to Him, it wldnt be enuff.
Where is the fire in me, the burning passion tt i had?

and im not the onli one experiencing tt. lols.
sometimes we humans realli are tt weak no matter how macho or how smart.
but it is our will tt kips us going.

speaking of which, CA1 results would be out nxt week.
wadever it is, do not be demoralised wif the results u wld receive.
u may have studied hard for this test but didnt receive the results u deserve.
learning frm ur mistakes is wad matters here.
yea such a common phrase lols.
but this phrase does have a very big point there.
and most importantly have the will to improve.
take mr latiff's brick wall theory for instance lol.
in life, all of us wld somehow hit a brick wall eventually no matter how smooth the path may be.
it is up to us whether we want to climb over it, dig under it, fly over it, break thru it -.-...
aiya wadever it is,
no matter how hard the brick wall may be or how huge or how many there are, it all comes down to us.
whether we want to face and challenge it, or just sit there, hoping for a miracle to happen.
i guess this is one of those theories tt kept him goin even though he is experiencing problems right now.
he is a strong man not becoz of his physical size lols.
he is strong becoz of the size of THIS portion in his heart. *points points*
Fortunate wife and daughter he has. hahas.

many things have happened this week.
things tt made me learn, and things tt made me fall.
i will just list them out and explain briefly due to the post bein too long alreadi.
and becoz of tt i tink SOME ppl are gonna start complaining :x :
1. ThamHin. the guy hu proved to me tt ppl like him EXISTS. rushing to clear some of my doubts on physics and doin wadever he cld to make sure i understood b4 the paper started actually made me dumbfounded hahas. ok i alreadi knew tt he is like tt a long time ago. but hey, it happened to me so might as well say it here.
2. Frances. The girl hu proved to others tt nth is impossible as long as u put in the hard work. She was one of the top 3 scorers together with the top 2 students in the cohort for Biology. and becoz of tt i tink im considering giving her tuition fees for biology. xD jkjk. Unbelievable? Believe it. lols.
3. Sabrina. The cute and amiable female hu is willing to try no matter how many laughs at her. despite not kicking the ball well, not aiming right etc etc, all she ever did was to have fun playing soccer, and not aiming for perfection. and becoz of tt she is one of the most respected person in the soccer team. Her actions awoke the 'trying no matter wad' character in me again.
4. QingHui. Talkative girl hu encourages her classmates even though they didnt do tt well. she continued clapping even though many stopped after the ppl taking bak the bio paper had B3 and below. i guess she was clapping for the improvements and efforts and not the grades.
5. Naresh. Tried to made me talk when i was just sitting there doin nth. He was pretty much my entertainer lols. Encouraged me to be more sociable.
6. Chin Chang. He is making every effort to be more sociable and to improve in wadever way he can despite the many ppl demoralising him. If onli ppl cld see the gd side of him.
7. Fatin. I just realised tt she can be as cheeky as anyone else around. xD

ok?
i tink i wun state the sad things here :x
but those r basically just the incidents tt hit me right on the head lols.
there r others but i cant seem to tink of them right now o.O
i guess tts it lols.
man how long did i take to type out these things x.x
one last thing,
UCC GIRLS JY! SEC 4 & 5 COHORT JY! HANISAH JY! ABDULLAH JY! DINO JY! MOMO JY! SEBAS JY! JOEL JY! SHIQI JY! LIHONG JY! RONGHUA JY! SYAHIDAH JY! MR LATIFF JY! AIYA EVERYONE JY! :D